I try to live up to expectations from around people regarding of my circumstance.

I've already got a lot of what I should do.

However, I accepted a new work from my coworker.

This is completely my mistake.

I think I'm challenging some sort of somethings anytime.

At same time, I feel like escaping from my circumstance.

And challenging is not bad thing at all.

Maybe I'm not good at living.

I'm bad at resting.

I feel I have no time for my next career because I'm already a middle age.

Perhaps, this feeling is correct.

So I feel that I have to do something like skill up and learning new technologies anytime.

There are lots of people who have unique and exceptional skills. Plus, they are young than me.

My hobby changed into learning skills.

In fact, I don't want to do anything for my coworkers.

However, I can't reject my coworker's expectations.

Because I need to learn new technologies and get a new skill.

That's why I'm busy day after day.

Given that I need to look after my kids until they grow up, it makes sense to work hard.

I have to do a lightning talk after three weeks.

Whether this is a good opportunity or waste time, I don't know yet.