Don't get carried away

I've been feeling frustrated with myself recently.

I hate me. I shit me. I cruel me. I ...

Why do I feel negative about myself?

Because I realized that I had been on a roll.

I didn't realize that I hurt others until now.

Of course, I didn't mean to hurt others.

But I hurt others.

It's a fact.

There’s no meaning in what I reflect

If I apologize to others, do they allow me?

If I tell them I'm reflecting, does my mistake disappear?

The answer is "No" both.

Whatever I say and whatever I do, I can't pretend my mistake didn't happen.

How do I never make the same mistake?

It's I don't get carried away.

I don't need to pretend to be funny and laugh.

I want to live like the doll has no heart.

I can't make my family happy

Because I'm not happy now.

I don't have happiness, so I can't give my family happiness.

Even if it's impossible, I don't want to trouble anyone.

That means I don't want to affect anyone.

I'm not going to communicate to heart with anyone.

Because I would betray people.